Tuesday, October 21, 2003
MeSsAgE tO dEaR: hmm do u sometimes wonder y i keep rejecting u nowadays? in terms of kisses? hmmm actually is like everytime u asked for a kiss or wat the environment also not very suitable.. either is some one around or like in public... and i dun like to kiss in public de wor.. like very 'shy'... as in i dun wan to let others see we 2 kiss la..like very wrong like that..... hmm do u get wat i mean? becoz i think this type of thing should do when we are in a private space.... like only we two nia.. no any body else around... do u noe wat i mean? hmmm... yea lo... i didnt wan to reject u one.. DIDN'T MEAN IT!!! SORRY... and i guess if i juz say the reason out u may think i m juz gifing excuses! in fact i m not! sorry! really didnt mean to reject u so many times...... DUI BU QI DEAR!!! and also... u asked me y we haven been sitting down for a chat lately...... hmm..... is like .... i think u really have to understand my situation here........ i need to reach home very early everyday..... as u noe... so, is like dis few days i also like reach home around 8+.. although i noe it's not very late to u or me, but it's very very late to my parents.... as u noe la uh.... den it's like if i reach home 'very' late for almost everyday, they may think that i have been going out very often... den they'll end up scolding me... forbidding me staying out late again den i cannot spend time wif u.... i dun wish for THAT KINDA THING TO HAPPEN!! neither do u rite?!?!?!?!?!?! OK IF U THINK I M JUZ FINDING SOME EXCUSES HERE, I TELLYA... I M NOT!!!!! okie! my thots are really like that! nvr bluff de..... it's not juz any other reasons i m not sitting down n chatting wif u... but i really thot that i have to be a good daughter, and since i have such conservative parents..... but i would really hope u would juz spare some thot abt how my family is... yep... not trying to say u didnt but..... that's my REAL reason for being like this nowadays! hope u wont blame me or hate me! and i'll also try to be the best of me! = )
Posted by EvoN at 11:21 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2003
lalala... today's a Sunday. also a stay-at-home-rotz day! haha... really tired.. but still haf to do work.. firdaus wans me to find info and tmr got introbie presentation wor! haha.. i will be the 1st group to present leh! how? somemore i 1st person!!! so nervous! haha nvm la..practice abit later will be fine riteZ??! Hee =D
anyway yesterday was an enjoyable day! i shopped few hours wif kl... very exciting... i simply love shopping b'coz i'll always get to see new things n see the things i'll love...woohoo! but i juz dun haf e money to buy.. i think that's juz life... haha... but i really hope i m able to juz get wat ever i wan next time.. of even.. juz get more contented i'll be happy... so in order to achieve that stage, i have to work very very hard wor!!! den i buy things will also be very very VERI e happy.. coz there'll be sense of satisfaction neh.... anyway yesterday was pretty enjoyable.. haha i haven even begin to feel tired den kl e legs wan to break liao.. it really proves that GURLz have a better stamina when it comes to shopping! muahahaha... but that also have to depends on situation... like maybe i m tired or no money...hahah... den had Swensen's in e nite.. was very cool... i ate pasta and an ice cream.. dunno is i too hungry or wat.. after i finish i still feel abit feel like eating more... muahahaha... my dad juz ask us to order wat ever we wan but we still try to save money for him... we are good girls... haha... hope will have another time like that.. kk gotta run go n do my medeln le... taaz...
Posted by EvoN at 4:39 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
feeling vexed dis few days... very TIRED TOO... feel like skipping every lessons now! haiz!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by EvoN at 11:57 PM
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
i hate chaletz~ i simply HATE them! juz bcoz i m a person who cant stay over nite outside and has to be home at least by 9! haiz~! WHY?! Y are my parents like that? haiz.. if they dun fang xin reach home late they can always sacrifice by sending me home! but they nvr did that! NEVER! and some how they also cant understand wat i wan! all teenagers like to haf fun! i bet they didnt know about it! which bbq ends at 8?!?!!?wah laoz.....haiz and when ever there's a chalet i dun really wan to participate much becoz i know clearly i wun be able to enjoy much! haiz... and even those Guai Gia got their parents come n fetch and they can go home as late as they wan... but me?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone gets to enjoy during e chalet or bbq~ and only i need to get home so quickly... it makes me feel~ OUTCASTED! and i hate dis type of feeling alot!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.......... gives me a very lonely feeling~ haiz!!!!!!!!!!! how? bbq is coming! shall i go? if i hafta reach home so early, wat's e point of going?!?!?!?!?!?! WHO CAN TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >= (
Posted by EvoN at 11:18 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
AIYOYO~ so tired n stressed up! i m yr2! exam comin! projects all gonna due!!! going crazy... but there's something i m very sure of, i think our hearts get closer!!!!!!!!!!!haha... that's GREAT!!!!!!!!!! well~ guess i wun be adding more entries lately coz will be bz... okok... miss ya blogger.. LOLz...
Posted by EvoN at 12:37 AM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
having a relationship can be a sweet thing.. because it brings in happiness to your life.. in order to enjoy all e happiness u can find in one relationship, one has to give in alot.. if one doesnt give in much, he/she will not get as much happiness also.. it's like paying for something, and getting e same quantity as e value paid.. so in a relationship.. both sides have to gif in.. an example can be changing themself.. maybe not that much.. but at least a lil.. juz to make a relationship more smoothing.. if one refuses to change a even a lil, e relationship could be a shorter one than those who commit more.. that's my point of view, perhaps it doesnt apply to others.. i m not sure.. e world is so big.. anything can juz happen to any relationship.. the thing i m very unsure is.. " Am i giving in anything in my own relationship?" i dunch exactly know the answer for this question.. perhaps only e other side will know the answer..
to me.. e longer e relationship is.. the more one will be asking for.. expectations during e 1st month will not be the same as expectations during e 12th month.. it will be higher of coz.. in my life, i have come crossed this situation many times, of coz, not on me, but on my frenz, but now i can really see it.. i felt that my own expectations are going higher as our days become more.. i m not sure if i should be going further more.. but i know going further up will do no good in e relationship because your e other side might still be wandering at their own level they think they should be at, it's not a bad thing..because nobody will know wat will happen in e future when one changes.. but wun a relationship be boring if it keeps staying at a same level? guess i m contradicting myself here.. haha.. well juz sorting my thots out dis evening.. to make sure i m still clear about wat i m doing now.. but am i? haha.. haven found an answer yet but i believe in doing wat i feel like doing.......
Posted by EvoN at 11:04 PM
hmm... so stressed up nowadays.. have so many projects to settle.. n my project group all sux..haiz.. so shagged.. but do i look ok? i seems to be thinking abt how to solve my projz all e time.. becoz i dunch wan to fail any of them.. becoz failing one biochem is already enuff for me~ haiz~
mct is like.. e group leader hackcare.. cannot make it group.. only hope that that STUPIAH INDIAN BOY can come out wif something..
den medeln... can make it.. but i actually dunno wat this whole thing is about... heng got firdaus.. if not really gone case.. think i'll find someone to teach me.. so at least when they are discussing, i'll at least know wat are they toking abt lo..
den introbie... got weird jinping.. really afraid of toking to him ever since last meeting.. dunch know y.. my mind juz dunch like it...= X.. to me, he's juz weird..
den got eIMC.. but that one like put aside liao.. haha... well think i better turn in early.. tmr got medeln test in e morning.. haiz.. m i stressing myself up???
Posted by EvoN at 12:23 AM
